Balm for the Broken-Heart

My Heart Hurts

Saying sorry hurts sometimes
Then my heart hurts.

Not sure what it wants from me except to leave the cracks
BE.

‘STOP it.’
It says.
‘The cracks in your heart are not yours to be filled.’

‘But it HURTS.’
I pause while trying to be on the mend. Listening.

‘You will NEVER mend from a place of fear. You fill the cracks fearful others won’t be able to accept the breaks and cracks as they are. Fear disintegrates and the breaks and cracks still preside.’

Dear Heart:

‘Then what do I do?’

Dear Kim:

‘Just be as you are. You have nothing to lose and everything to gain.’

Dialogue with my broken heart.
-Kim

Author

pikjohnson@ucdavis.edu
I want this to be a safe space to share my goings-on while I dig deep into my journey of self-discovery. What brings me to my desire to share my journey? I wish to provide life-coaching services to others. I coach to help others uncover what it is that is holding them back from accomplishing what is dearest in their hearts, spirit and minds. I am currently a student at iPEC, Institute of Professional Excellence in coaching. I am determined to disseminate my coaching services to all those interested. While I coach, I also would like to share bits and pieces of what it is that I do as a life coach-to-be and inversely, what I do not do. I am an imagineer, at your service. That is the best way I can describe a life coach to you. As a life coach-to-be, I can teach you how to think outside the box, consider alternative perspectives and reflect on what influences your thoughts. If any of this sounds like something you are experiencing, what is stopping you from moving forward? A space to message me may be found on the middle menu option on my home page. I acknowledge, appreciate and embody gratitude for each and every one of you and the struggles which you endeavour each and every moment. No one is a stranger to adversity. We can all overcome adversity because of our combined diversity. Thank you for contributing your time into our growing and collective, worldly diversity. Endearingly yours, Kim

Comments

May 25, 2020 at 3:20 pm

I wish I had that voice in my head. I’ll keep trying to hear it.



May 26, 2020 at 10:23 pm

Silver Linings, thank you for stopping by.

When this dialogue struck me the other day, it reminded me of something Rupi Kaur wrote.

She actually asked her heart what it needed her to do. She said her heart said to write.

Perhaps, your poetry is your heart desperately wanting you to know everything is happening for a reason. Desperately wants you to open up even more.

Another quote I love about broken hearts, is from one of my favorite novels by Jacqueline Winspear. One character asks how another left behind Everything Most Loved — family, friends, home country….this is what she said:

“β€œI’ll tell you this. Leaving that which you love breaks your heart open. But you will find a jewel inside, and this precious jewel is the opening of your heart to all that is new and all that is different, and it will be the making of you-if you allow it to be.”
― Jacqueline Winspear, Leaving Everything Most Loved



Leave a Reply

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.

× Have a conversation
%d bloggers like this: